I just thought of this and you say that I’m losing my mind…..but it may be a way for me to rationalize it. Through my military career I’ve made decisions without missing a beat. I was a .50cal gunner in Iraq and it was important for us to make split decisions on approaching vehicles and rather to decipher if it’s enemy or friendly. ……1sec late could mean death. The decision I made at work was apparently the WRONG decisions. A decision that put my in the hospital….. And out of work……and look NOW, I can’t make a decisions simple things such as eating…….
so I get stuck in limbo.